Words are not enough to describe this sight.

This pic is taken from a friend's album. I was mesmerised on seeing this . To somebody it may be just a bunch of beautiful mushrooms, but to me it has a deep subtle meaning. Life for me has always been a mystery, whenever I have this feeling I understand life considerably, something comes up which changes my notion about life dramatically.

This pic also had the same effect. I always believed that "All chidren are born alike, its the environment which makes the difference". I think in my life almost all the successful people I have met, I have known vindicated my belief. They are from good families, with good education and upbringing.

This pic shows that beauty(metaphorically SUCCESS) can grow right on top of the decayed matter(metaphorically WORST POSSIBLE CONDITIONS) . This made me believe that success is not a function of environment somebody belongs to. It has got a much more bigger picture than I had anticipated.

What you do when u "JUST DO IT"

What people do when they are taking a pee? Well this is a very weird but obvious question. Well to begin with I shall divulge what I do. Its a very mood dependent phenomenon. When I am in happy mood I pee all over the pot :P , when I am frustrated I target the napthelene ball kept in the pot and wish I could melt it rightaway. Well when I am sad, it takes hell lot of effort to actually pour it out.

The real fun is when I take a pee in the open during my trips. I stand at a place where there is lot of clear vacant land, and then pee while looking at the sky thinking ,I dont care who owns this land 'I AM THE GOD'. Have you have peed on a wall on which it is written 'DONT URINATE'? Trust me it gives an instant high when you pee on any such walls :P .

Where are you from?

It happens quite often that when you meet people one of the most probable questions is "Where are you from ?" This question often makes me think where am I from, because I just can't attribute a single place or culture to which I belong.

I was born in Jamshedpur(then Bihar, now Jharkhand), in a Marwari family and grew up in a Bengali neighbourhood. I am a mix of Marwari(because of the family connection), Bengali( because of the neighbourhood connection) and Bihari( because of surroundings) cultures. I can speak Marwari, Bengali fluently and manageable Bhojpuri.I relish Dal-Batti, Churma(Marwari dishes) , Misti-Doi, Kalakand(Bengali dishes), Litti, Chokha(Bihari dishes) equally. I celebrate Diwali,Durga Pooja,Chaatt,Holi with equal fervour. I came down to Bangalore for my undergrad studies and thereafter have settled here. Bangalore is like a melting pot of cultures, I have been exposed to almost all the South Indian cultures, Anglo-Indian culture, West Indian culture here in varying proportion.

To sum it all, I think I have an effect of almost all the major Indian cultures though in varying proportions. I am a pot pourri of all these mixes. That makes it all the more difficult for me to answer somebody's question that "Where are you from?"

Well that dilemma was on a lighter note, when I think hard about this question it really worries me. What is the reason of my worry you must be pondering? Well when I look around me I get a cold feet, reason being most of the people I know have almost the same mix of cultures in their upbringings and what they finally emerged is into a "Sophisticated phislistine face", pretty much as I am. I am so disconnected with the pulse of this country that I dont care what would be the outcome of this reservation brouhaha or what would be the fate of the killers of Jessica Lal. I am so smugly immersed in my own "Sophisticated" life that I am immune to what is happening outside. Is the urban middle class who are the "Sophisticated people" turning into "Burgeois" which Lenin referred as the actual enemy of Socialism.

A Ray of Hope amidst this DEMOCRATIC CHAOS.

Y'day the poll results were announced for four state assemblies and one parliamentary constituency(RAIBARELI). The results pretty much reveal the state of democracy in the country. In Raibareli, Sonia Gandhi won with a record margin and she gave the credit to Rahul, a legitimate way to bring the scion of Gandhi family in the mainline politics. Another chapter of dynastic rule to usher in sometime in future in India, RAHUL is our "Would be PM candidate". Thats one sad chapter of Indian democracy where we still have the hangover of colonial period with allegiance towards a family rather than ideals.

In other states we saw people giving demigod status to politicians, polls have become more of power show and an arena to settle personal scores.

Amidst all these chaos, there was a glint of hope in TamilNadu. PARITRANA, a party formed by IITIANS' bagged 10K and 12K votes in two constituencies. Though they didnt win any seats, but getting sizeable votes vindicates the spirit of revolution against the philistine establishment. This goes in a long way to show that hope is only thing which has kept has afloat till date.

We hope to see many such success stories in coming times.

What you do when it rains???

It is prevalent in Bangalore that when the temp goes high the rain is surely ensuing . So true to its established behaviour it rained intermittently here since afternoon and brought down the soaring mercury.

I was stuck in the office doing not so exciting work and cribbing at my inability to leave the office and enjoy the rain. Thank god, I could leave the office by 1900 hrs and there I was a happy, carefree soul set free to enjoy the rain. Wow!!! the weather was awesome outside and I thought of getting drenched. It has been a long since I got drenched. I got on my bike and started towards my place. On my way, I saw a small park where few kids where getting drenched. Voila, I found the place to get drenched. I cant describe what fun it was, playing with those kids and getting drenched. No amount of money can buy those moments of happiness.

After getting drenched completely, I was on way to my flat. Suddenly felt like having a Cornetto, imagine the chill I got while having the ice cream in drenched state. With all these came an urge to have a smoke, too cooool... I was savouring each moment of the rain with ice cream and smoke.

I wish it rains more often in Bangalore, the routine office life is so boring.... Anyways this was what I did when it rained.. How about u fellas???

THE DOGS MUST BE CRAZY!!!

Have you ever encountered this situation when street dogs chase your vehicle in the midnight if you pass by them speedily? Y'day night at around 0100 hrs I had a sudden urge to have Thums-Up. Bangalore closes by 2330 hrs and u find only call centre/BPO cabs or street dogs after this time.
I was in a fix karu tho kya karu, jau tho kaha jau. Suddenly the thought of going to the Airport came to my mind and I said bingo. Airport is around 1.5 Kms from my place and only place open round the city in East Bangalore. I got on my bike and started towards the Airport. My lane is haunted by street dogs, night is their time of bossing around.I was aware of this and was cautious while crossing the 'dreaded area', but to my dismay two dogs came out of no where and started barking and chasing me. I said holy fuck and sped on the accelerator. Bastards were not ready to give up chased me for 500 mts, let me confess they scared the hell out of me.
After I crossed this nightmare, I was towards the Airport and when I was gulping the so wanted 'Thums-Up' at the Airport, I started thinking 'THE DOGS MUST BE CRAZY' to do something like this. I mean why on earth would they do like something like that without any reason, was I disturbing or hurting them in any way? But this also occured to me that many times when I am walking back to place late in the night they dont chase me.With these thoughts I came to my place though I was a bit scared. Luckily while retuning dogs didnt chase me.
When I came back, I got talking with my flatmate about this and he said even he had faced this chasing fiasco.But he added one new dimension to this incident, while crossing that 'dreaded area' if you are slow the dogs wont chase or bark at you.Isnt that surprising and intriguing? I mean why on earth would they chase you when u r speeding away.
I could conclude nothing but 'THE DOGS MUST BE CRAZY'.

ELIXIR in this MADDENING WORLD!!!!!

ELIXIR in this MADDENING WORLD!!!!!

Yday suddenly I was amazed to see the pile of beer cans && bottles, vodka bottles, soda cans and etc etc in my kitchen. I was thinking have I finished all of these or may be my envious neighbour has steathily dumped some of his trash here. No nah never my neighbour could never do this, this was the handiwork of my flatmates and the great me. Then I decided to peep in the refreigerator, wow to my usual belief I could see a bottle of vodka and few beer cans hanging in there for our eleventh hour need.

This made me sit and think back that why my stock of this so called "ELIXIR" is never over, whereas most other stuffs are out of stock mostly. I could figure out the reason pretty soon, whenever I drop in Fabmall to pick up my groceries I am always tempted towards the WINEMALL, a small section within it. Most of my time I spent there, trying to remember what all I need to replenish in the refreigerator and in this process most of the groceries are forgotten.

Why am I always tempted at the sight of this ELIXIR. Plain and simple it makes my parched throat go gaga after I am back from a bad/good/worst day. The fizz of beer takes my worries along and all I am left is with the soothing taste of it asking for nothing but more of it;)

Truth Comes in SMALL Packages

My Bangalore

What are they trying to prove?

Often I see at the traffic signals that few two wheeler riders are in too hurry as soon as the signal goes green. I dont understand what they are trying to prove, the vehicles are in a criss cross arrangement at signals in India and amidst this if one tries to rush through he may get smashed sometime for sure.Trust me its even scary to watch these misdeeds on the road.

More than often I see this and shudder at the thought what if something happens right here.

Sold my SOUL.

As Ozzy says, "I have a vision that I just can’t control. I feel I’ve lost my spirit and sold my soul.Got no control" I think even I am going the same way. I live by my watch, fuck me its so depressing at times. I just have no god damn clue what am I doing and for whom am I doing this shit.There is no charm left in life, even in my dreams I am haunted by the nightmares of office.

Did I slog my ass all these years to live such a fucked up life, there is no bloody time to enjoy with all the money I earn.From outside it may look very glam, I am working in an MNC, getting paid handsomely, get to travel aboard frequently. People think I have all the goodies I wanted and look at me with awe.I fucking feel so choked inside that I cant even vent out my innermost feelings to somebody.I am allowing my life to be fucked up at what cost,few fucking thousand dollars.Crap, I never wanted this type of life, if this shit is what is called corporate life I am amazed how presumably millions of people are so happy with it.

I need to get out of this choking life and do something probably which would earn me may be some less dollars but I would be driven by passion and would be happy at the end of the day.